Crap. I know I seem too young to think about this, but I don't know what career I will go for when I'm older. The reason I am thinking now is because, depending on my decision in the next year, what high school I choose to go to will most likely decide what career I go for. People always say to go after what you enjoy doing and I love drawing, but I just suck at it. And I'm not just saying I'm bad because I am beating myself up, but because my drawings now look just like the drawings I drew 3-4 years ago (before I stopped for 3 years). JJ, like Nikolai, I would like you to give me your opinion on what I should do. (don't feel pressured or like what you say might ruin my life, I just want an opinion)
I have also been talking about going to a certain high school for a while now and I think my parents don't think I'm serious due to my age, and I'm afraid that if I do decide I want to do something different with my life (other than what I would go to this particular school for) they won't take me seriously with anything ever again.
Gahhh! I hate freaking monologuing! I feel old! I know this is taking up space in this forum for no reason but its not really something something I can talk to my friends or family about (I know I should feel comfortable talking with my family, but I don't, and my friends [who are my age] are way less mature than I am [that is why i said I feel old, I am more mature than alot of kids my age]), so I actually feel more comfortable sharing this with people I don't know over the unsafe internet filled with creepy stalker guys who look at child porn. I even act less mature than I am around my family or else they'll think I'm depressed or over thinking things. Sometimes I wish I were in the Matrix, although that "ignorance is bliss" is not true (even though in this world it sometimes sounds nice). I can't enjoy my trip to Europe because my family (mainly my sisters and my dad) keep getting frustrated and angry, while I hang back about five yards. I don't want to depress people, but being the way I am (around people who don't see themselves and understand what they are taught), I tend to come off as quiet and sad (I don't smile as often as I should so my thinking face looks angry or sad, which causes people to misunderstand what I am feeling). I think this post might be a little depressing, but I need to get it out in some form. Well, if you have read this far, you won't be annoyed if I continue my speech. The high school I mentioned earlier would be a boarding military academy (for I am seriously thinking of serving in the military and I plan on getting used to the kind of military order found in some military academies) but my parents think I should just go to a normal boarding school for the experience and if I did I would be able to pursue my hope of being an artist (cartoon artist, not like paintings and stuff). I don't know what to do. I suck at drawing and I'm not in the best physical condition (with exercise induced asthma and lack of interest in football [the one sport I'm good at, and the main sport military academies are interested in]. I can always get in shape, but I don't know if my drawing skills will improve enough to convince I can make it in enough time. Crap, I'm thirteen, turning fourteen soon, and I feel like I am deciding my life! On top of this probably unnecessary stress is the fact that the football coach I had for Spring training this Spring, who is a great guy, super nice, wants (and expects me to) do football next year at my school. My school has a sucky art class where all we do is make books or paper mache, not how to improve drawing. There is noway I can find art classes before school starts because my trip takes most of the summer. I am also interested in physics but I'm slowly losing interest in it. because of this I am losing faith in my self and I don't know what I'll thinkof drawing or military in 2-3 years. Overall, I have a great life, but I just don't.....gahhh! I don't know! Please, I know this post has gone on forever and is completely off topic, but I need opinions. Anyone?
I have also been talking about going to a certain high school for a while now and I think my parents don't think I'm serious due to my age, and I'm afraid that if I do decide I want to do something different with my life (other than what I would go to this particular school for) they won't take me seriously with anything ever again.
Gahhh! I hate freaking monologuing! I feel old! I know this is taking up space in this forum for no reason but its not really something something I can talk to my friends or family about (I know I should feel comfortable talking with my family, but I don't, and my friends [who are my age] are way less mature than I am [that is why i said I feel old, I am more mature than alot of kids my age]), so I actually feel more comfortable sharing this with people I don't know over the unsafe internet filled with creepy stalker guys who look at child porn. I even act less mature than I am around my family or else they'll think I'm depressed or over thinking things. Sometimes I wish I were in the Matrix, although that "ignorance is bliss" is not true (even though in this world it sometimes sounds nice). I can't enjoy my trip to Europe because my family (mainly my sisters and my dad) keep getting frustrated and angry, while I hang back about five yards. I don't want to depress people, but being the way I am (around people who don't see themselves and understand what they are taught), I tend to come off as quiet and sad (I don't smile as often as I should so my thinking face looks angry or sad, which causes people to misunderstand what I am feeling). I think this post might be a little depressing, but I need to get it out in some form. Well, if you have read this far, you won't be annoyed if I continue my speech. The high school I mentioned earlier would be a boarding military academy (for I am seriously thinking of serving in the military and I plan on getting used to the kind of military order found in some military academies) but my parents think I should just go to a normal boarding school for the experience and if I did I would be able to pursue my hope of being an artist (cartoon artist, not like paintings and stuff). I don't know what to do. I suck at drawing and I'm not in the best physical condition (with exercise induced asthma and lack of interest in football [the one sport I'm good at, and the main sport military academies are interested in]. I can always get in shape, but I don't know if my drawing skills will improve enough to convince I can make it in enough time. Crap, I'm thirteen, turning fourteen soon, and I feel like I am deciding my life! On top of this probably unnecessary stress is the fact that the football coach I had for Spring training this Spring, who is a great guy, super nice, wants (and expects me to) do football next year at my school. My school has a sucky art class where all we do is make books or paper mache, not how to improve drawing. There is noway I can find art classes before school starts because my trip takes most of the summer. I am also interested in physics but I'm slowly losing interest in it. because of this I am losing faith in my self and I don't know what I'll thinkof drawing or military in 2-3 years. Overall, I have a great life, but I just don't.....gahhh! I don't know! Please, I know this post has gone on forever and is completely off topic, but I need opinions. Anyone?